Warning.The Most Fucked Up Time of Your Life. It's Coming.

For anyone yet to experience it, another thing no one warns us about is the moment of adversity when we realize that we are utterly and unbearably alone.

Even if you think you've seen the most fucked up time of your life, I have some bad news for you.

At some point in your life, there will come a time or that time will come to you, when there is no answer to the question, no relief you seek from what you are suffering. And it will be the suffering unique to a great personal loss.

There will be no one who understands, no one who sees and no one who comes empowered to loosen its' crushing grip on you.

This suffering is a different animal; an unfamiliar trouble distinguishable by its' merciless, isolating pall. Barren of all hope and rife throughout with cancerous despair, your life in moments during this time will seem unspeakably painful.

And, you will feel it.

Horror will roam and roar in shadows cast by fear that towers in your mind, a fear fattened on the constant feeding its' had of you.

At this time, there will be no eyes to see, no ears to hear except yours, and yours, alone.

When you find yourself broken at the foot of that mountain, you might be tempted to close your eyes from it all.

Instead, breathe.

With the first full breath you pull into your lungs, invite silence to come and dwell freely in the empty places that have been carved within you.

Allow the silence to take unfettered passage throughout your emptiness and its' corridors.

This silence comes hungry. Let it hunt and consume your Judas mind.
This silence comes thirsty. Let it drink tears.

All that has ever been and will always be was born from a womb of Silence. It's powerful.

Listen to it.